| So I chose to spend my New Years Eve alone. It wasn't anyone else's choice but my own and in all honesty, I kind of liked it. I blasted the stereo up to about -7 which is pretty damn loud, cut a slice of cheesecake and topped it with colored candles, lit them and blew out my own New Years Eve cake. Two weeks before New Years Eve, I kept hoping I could spend it with someone in particular. But he was someone I should have realized months ago, I should have never let back into my life. Now after trying so hard to make what I wished for in my mind happen, I've thrown away the key and I'm never opening that door again. Everyone, or at least it seems, has New Years resolutions. In all honesty, I only have one and that is to get into college. Every year I always wish for a boyfriend, but this year I didn't. I feel like for the time being, I'm going to have someone come to me and not the other way around. Funny I say that because someone has, but I'm not going to get all my hopes up. I'm merely going to respond back to him as if he's just a friend and if something happens, something happens. But I will admit, his thick black glasses, lip pierced, green eyes, and aspiration of cooking is amazing. I am so unbelievably happy that 2007 is over. I went through too many heartaches that it would have seriously, killed off any disease that tried to infect me. I'm so looking forward to everything 2008 has offer. College, new people I'll be meeting, finally living my dream of going to college for photography, graduation. God, I remember when I was a freshmen and I was counting down the seconds until it finally hit 2005, and I remember thinking, "Wow, only 4 more years until I graduate" and now look at where I am. xhugs, Verityx |
